I was never good at hiding my emotions,
ready to jump at the first sign of devotion.
Still my heart aways ended up bruised,
and my skin feeling worn and used.
Maybe this time,
you could be mine?
And not end up torn
by a slight of hand.
How could I be so blind?
Even though my eyes
my eyes, they still see you.
How can I always throw
myself into the burning fire?
Will I ever learn not to wear my heart
for all to see,
for all to shoot?
Let me in,
so I can
crawl under your skin.
There is nothing left in me,
so reassure me
with you is who I have to be with.
Light flooding the room,
your eyes on me.
I have been in others’ arms,
still I meant you no harm.
There is nothing left to say,
we are both waiting for the end.
Now I know we were never meant to be,
that your eyes never searched for me.
Teach me how to let go,
how to stop pain from breaking me in two.
Show me how the light will shine,
even though you are no longer mine.
I kept coming back for more,
like water washing up on the shore.
Either I always end up giving in too much,
or you just make me crumble under your touch.
Still I have to learn how to not break and bend,
give a little bit less so I make it to the end.
God knows I’ve been down,
and that all I ever lost was you.
I could walk a thousand miles,
swiping my own blood across the bathroom tiles.
And still the sea is not deep enough,
for me to drown in slowly.
There is a fever in my heart,
pain colliding with my bones.
Still you were there from the start,
and you know how to hold me close.
We both know we will never be,
doesn’t mean I can’t set you free.
Tell me boy, where do we fall
everything one answers the call.
I’m the only one who can truly see,
the gunfire ringing out in my head.
As I’m lying in the water, feeling dead,
your words never comforted me.
You never managed to set me free,
still I know I can only depend on me.
I always dreamt and had a plan,
just wanted you to hold my hand.
But still some people never change,
and you couldnt’ keep up with my pace.
Your smiles hid the pain,
the fact that I was just a piece in your chain.