I’m the only one who can truly see,
the gunfire ringing out in my head.
As I’m lying in the water, feeling dead,
your words never comforted me.
You never managed to set me free,
still I know I can only depend on me.
I always dreamt and had a plan,
just wanted you to hold my hand.
But still some people never change,
and you couldnt’ keep up with my pace.
Your smiles hid the pain,
the fact that I was just a piece in your chain.
How to, forget hands that caressed me in the dead of night,
words whispered and got tangled with my own breath.
How to, not remember your crooked smile,
or how you made tears fall from these blue eyes.
How do I get over the fact that I remember you
every now and then,
when the sun goes down,
when my heart is about to drown.
How to know that even though I’m over you,
you still keep a hold of my soul and bones.
How to know that I am not crawling on the ground,
but I can meet pain when it inevitably comes around.
We might have met like an avalanche
but you smiled and I took a chance.
We could burn it all down around us
It’s only you who I need to trust.
When I look into your eyes,
I pretend you’ve always been mine.
Wondering if we could do this,
I did not feel like the pieces missed.
But you put me together so easily,
Or is it too soon to have our hearts on the line?
Something about you,
kept me coming back.
Some flicker of hope,
hidden between your eyes.
Now I know, it was all on me,
that we could never be.
Tell me you wanted me since the first time you laid eyes on me,
that beside me is where you were supposed to be.
When we’re far away, you miss my touch,
that I’m the only one you want close enough.
I could tell you that I really like it when you smile,
that you’re the one that I seek at night.
When you’re close time just flies,
that with you I would walk for miles.
There’s no safety in between these arms,
read my words once not twice.
Boy we are going down in confusion,
but we’re still shining bright.
On my knees you’ll never see me pray,
there is no fear for the upcoming dawn,
because at some point from you I will stray.
Sure life goes on,
doesn’t mean that to you I had to hold on.
Still your promises hurt
and you are good at disguising your words.
Now we are back to square one,
looking around each other like strangers.
It’s been a while
not sure if I feel the same
every time I look you in the eyes.
There’s no need for you
to believe you have to set me free.
I got confused but never lost,
still you’re the one to blame.
I might have misjudged you,
but I was never yours, you see.
Might have believed in us both,
but we were just a flicker of a flame.