Light flooding the room,
your eyes on me.
I have been in others’ arms,
still I meant you no harm.
There is nothing left to say,
we are both waiting for the end.
Now I know we were never meant to be,
that your eyes never searched for me.
Teach me how to let go,
how to stop pain from breaking me in two.
Show me how the light will shine,
even though you are no longer mine.
I kept coming back for more,
like water washing up on the shore.
Either I always end up giving in too much,
or you just make me crumble under your touch.
Still I have to learn how to not break and bend,
give a little bit less so I make it to the end.
God knows I’ve been down,
and that all I ever lost was you.
I could walk a thousand miles,
swiping my own blood across the bathroom tiles.
And still the sea is not deep enough,
for me to drown in slowly.
There is a fever in my heart,
pain colliding with my bones.
Still you were there from the start,
and you know how to hold me close.
We both know we will never be,
doesn’t mean I can’t set you free.
Tell me boy, where do we fall
everything one answers the call.
I’m the only one who can truly see,
the gunfire ringing out in my head.
As I’m lying in the water, feeling dead,
your words never comforted me.
You never managed to set me free,
still I know I can only depend on me.
I always dreamt and had a plan,
just wanted you to hold my hand.
But still some people never change,
and you couldnt’ keep up with my pace.
Your smiles hid the pain,
the fact that I was just a piece in your chain.
How to, forget hands that caressed me in the dead of night,
words whispered and got tangled with my own breath.
How to, not remember your crooked smile,
or how you made tears fall from these blue eyes.
How do I get over the fact that I remember you
every now and then,
when the sun goes down,
when my heart is about to drown.
How to know that even though I’m over you,
you still keep a hold of my soul and bones.
How to know that I am not crawling on the ground,
but I can meet pain when it inevitably comes around.
We might have met like an avalanche
but you smiled and I took a chance.
We could burn it all down around us
It’s only you who I need to trust.
When I look into your eyes,
I pretend you’ve always been mine.
Wondering if we could do this,
I did not feel like the pieces missed.
But you put me together so easily,
Or is it too soon to have our hearts on the line?